*sigh*

Love is fickle thing.

I so wrote this!

The ones we hold so close,
We push so far away,
From fear they just wont stay,
From fear they will push us away,
But then you come across one person,
You grab their hand, you don't let go,
For if you do, they might slip away,
And every moment spent,
You spend hoping it will never end,
But the next moment is better than last,

Sometimes things keep you apart,
An ocean of lies?
A web of deceit?
They ask "where were you?"
And you cannot reply,
For you know,
Those arms coiled around you,
Are not yours to keep,

So everyday I thank the Lord,
That I found you,
I can let you go,
You can push me away,
For I love you ($1=$1+1)

Christmas

Christmas is a strange time of year... Sure it all makes perfect sense but the presents are so hard...

Even harder this year since it's the first christmas I've had a girlfriend... I mean what do you get someone who you love so much that nothing can truely show how much...

I just wish I didn't have such a limit on my budget so I could buy her the whole earth and be a fraction closer to showing my love.


I miss Becky... We havn't spent much time together this month because of Christmas and stuff.

Anyway I'm off to write more Christmas cards.

...

I love him so much sometimes i get butterflies.
I now know what it means when gillian says: "Love is like when you spin round and round with your arms stretched out when your younger" in practical magic.

This boy is owned people =]

Today.

Ok so apart from lunch today has been awful.
I spent first lesson entirely depressed and heart broken, i encounted the worst moment that i had encountered since my happiness began and i had german where i think i had heart failure. I also did my back in real bad during pe.
Today has been the first day i have been unhapppy for any period of time since sunday before last. And i am ok now but my brain is just a bit frazzled.
Lunch however was great.
I bummed in Ellies form room for a bit and then went to stevens form room where i picked up a Felix and My steven, then we picked up a Jenna. I already had an emma because she is amazing. We bummed around all lunch and i felt kinda alot better.
I hope i dont have any near "heart broken into unrepairale pieces" moments tomorrow. I also hope Chris is still upset about making me feel like that.
I am going to get steven to read this so he will read this last bit which is telling him to BLOG MORE!!!!!

becky and steven say: hah we hate blog titles

So today there was a geography field trip whihc my scummy bf steven decided he would go on. Well it technically wasnt his fault but we blame him anyway =P So i was a loner...=[
I also sat on a bench originally by myself but then joined by anoth loner...yay
Then my dear steven tried to creep up onme but gay jonold decided to proil it =[
humph
After lenghtly reunion we digressed but i didnt get very far when i was ambushed by a felix telling me to meet izzye...i was like yaay! So i met the izzye of doom..previous arch enemy now new friend of mine =]
After we finally moved away from that ness i went home
this bits boring... dentist woot

Anyway now i am at stevens! double joy allegedly writing a blog together but he has other thoughts and so hasnt helped.
So its just me posting on his account
woop
He sucks
yay
Nah hes ok...
ok ok i admit he is quite awesome!

blah blah i ahte these things

Yes i agree...
I mean the teasing is annoying...especially if they think that you are kissing felix -.-
mega lolz.
You never realise how crap school is until you get yourself a bf who you wish to kiss lots, i mean you have teachers who are a major problem. Then you have to find somewhere to kiss which is a problem in itself.
Damn.
Then who can forget the friends. I mean WTF is there bloody problem!
Geez...tbh its not like they don't do it.
Grrr
Hehe

Teachers

Teachers are a problem when you are kissing... they can be either be:

Not very nice and tell you off imediately for kissing. We got told off for kissing in the library... I mean why???? Its not disturbing anyone...

or

Nice but decide that they are going to tease you for the rest of your life about it. Really REALLY annoying! But they do tend to be more entertaining lessons because of it...

Erm ness...

My steven gave me the universe =]
If i was as good as him at conquring things i would give him the universe too!
But i suck at it...so i didn't.
Lolage...we got awwed by explorer peoples...i personally found it amusing.

XXX

Update

I have now successfully taken over the universe and given it to becky. You are now under her control...

Next target: a parallel universe! :D